I’ve been a little quiet this past week on social media, for the first time in a very long time I found that I just wanted to log off for a bit. Since I became ill the online world has provided me a lot of support and distraction but also became a bit of a crutch. I have found though that as I lean on the Lord more and more I find the things I used to need I don’t so much. This is good as it means that I can pop in just purely out of enjoyment and wanting to check in on friends as opposed to needing something to take my mind away from my life.
So what have I been doing? well something I have done a lot this week is go outside…I know. It been amazing. Due to my health and the fact my poor hubby has been holding down jobs (yes, plural), a business, uni as well as caring for me, cooking, cleaning etc has meant our garden became a little neglected. Now I am feeling stronger, we are getting help with cleaning plus hubbies business is no more together with the wonderful weather we have been having has meant we have been able to get out. There’s still some work to be done but he has done an amazing job and there is actually a garden under all that overgrowth! Who knew I did help and I would like to think I was a help more than a hindrance but I am not so sure.
However while hubby was gardening yesterday I did pop out and did a little drawing something else which Is a first, I really enjoyed it and hope I can do it again soon.
I have also been in a couple of shops this week, this too is pretty amazing! Being in shops is not nice when you get over stimulated easily and some shops are better than others. There’s a lovely little craft shop near us that is small and quiet, no music plus the lighting is good and not too bright so hubby took me there and let me have a few bits. (this was to cheer me up but I will explain about that later). We then tried BNM bargains but that one was harder, busier so we went more or less straight in and out. I also managed to go into Morrisons yesterday, I didn’t go right in but the lighting in there is a lot better than other supermarkets and I feel I might be OK to try at a quieter time to go in properly.
I also went to the hospital, which turned out to be a bit of a shambles as I got the day wrong (hence the treat trip to the craft shop) but they remade my appointment and were very nice about my blunder, even though I wasn’t very nice to myself about it.
I also went for a little walk this past week with my Mum just to the field at the bottom of the road it was such a lovely day we had to take advantage.
So as you can tell, I have been living in real life more and more and I really do hope it continues.
It seems of the many many things the Lord is doing for me as well as slowly building my trust in Him and confidence He is also making my relationships healthier and my relationship with the internet is definitely getting better. I think the internet is wonderful as is social media but I do have to admit I didn’t like how much time I spent on it and how much I used it to help me. My hubby used to joke that my laptop was the window to my world but it wasn’t just that, it was my world.
When I first became a Christian someone told me that the Lord would come through the fog but he has done so much more than that. He has cleared the fog and I am seeing more and more of the world around me again. My world is expanding past my sofa, laptop and phone and it feels amazing.
Gratitude doesn’t even cover it.